I'm makin' a pressie for Yazz, guys. :) Yes, makin'. Not like scrapbook or roses, though I'm probably going to make a rose for him sometime soon just because. So yes sweetie, be carful or I ambush you with a rose. (Doesn't that sort of remind you of Tuxedo Mask or most ballroom dancing?) :3 

Oh, also, go read NaNoWriMo`s history. 

I stopped taking my pills... yesterday morning, I think. My penicillin pills. Now, I'm not sure if my throat is supposed to hurt slightly after it. I know I'm not having too much trouble swallowing but I'm a little worried that it's already coming back or I didn't have a strong enough dosage? If it gets too bad then I'll do something about it. The crappy part is I'm on my period, so things in general are pretty wonky for me right now. 

Yazz is going to wake me up at about 5.30 AM tomorrow, which is good. But I had to persuade/tell him that he needed to. XP He wanted me to rest but I was resting ALL TODAY and now I'm just... blah. XD The good news is I'm on my period. The bad news is everything in my body is very angry with me, and my emotions are being pretty retarded. Moreso than usual when I'm on my period. I'm sad/cry-face/depressed, which is normal for me on my period. but me being randomly angry to the point of just wanting to shut people out is rather new. XD Give me time, I'll adjust. I did it pretty well/quickly this evening. 

So, I've been thinking of keeping a mini-side journal on my laptop. At the end of the day, I'll document everything I did that day. It will start with variants of "Today", and end with "MLIA." Just kidding, or maybe I'm not. It seems a bit interesting, and I'll get to read it at the end of the month to see how my days go. Mundane, amusing, fun, etc. I'm not sure if I'll be documenting any specific emotions, just rather vague ones. Although I suppose all emotions that can be pinned with a specific name or word are vague. Anyway, I'm not too sure how it's going to go. I don't know what format I'll be writing it in either, so this should be fun. Think of it as my own NaNoWriMo, except that not that intense. I might start for December though, seeing as how It's already November 11th. I guess December is an odd time to start though, because of exams, holidays, etc. We'll see when I decide to start.  

But yeah. That's pretty much that for today. I updated my blogger and I am pretty beat. I need to sleep naow. Yazz tried to crack my back but it was stiff so it wouldn't work. Silly body, you're not supposed to be that stiff! 

*Tackle hugs Aikou*

 So, being moody because of my pills pulled a major fuck you on me. Which is okay, because I'm on my period now and it's all good. I'm not really thinking of killing myself, ever, anymore. Just the thought of "what would happen" and "what would it be like". What would happen: A lot of people would grieve. A lot of people would be pretty damn sad. I'm not being egotistical, it's the truth. If anyone does, their friends and family members are usually sad at their death. They may celebrate differently than other places, but in the end it's the same. I have no idea what it would be like, though, nor do I intend to find out any time soon.

So, as some of you know, Yazz lives near an overpass. It's weird. I'm not suicidal or depressed, but every time I look down upon the oncoming and on going cars through the overpass, I just feel like I want to jump. It's a random feeling, and it's that specific overpass. Ohwell~ 

I'm listening to "Walking In Memphis" by Marc Cohn right now. It's a good song. I'm also bleeding. And incredibly happy about this X3 

I didn't want to, but I did need it. ._.; Thank-you for letting me do it. I still want to do it more, by the way. But I'll try to toughen up as best I can for you, right now. 

JEN SMASH! 

Guys, I kind of want to go shopping for a pretty pretty dress D; But I don't need a pretty pretty dress nor do I have anything to wear one to. D: :((((((((( 

IN OTHER NEWS ;D
Ttly can't wait until this Friday. 8) Not because it's the 13th but because this Friday I get to dress up and be AWESOME like I wanted to do on the 30th but couldn't because I had an infection boo

speaking of which, OH SHIT PILLS D;

You know what's funny? Vista is like Voldemort. "He who shall not be named". They don't actually name Vista on the Mac commercials. Lol
So, I made a cake yesterday.

Oh my GAWD It is SO GOOD. I can bake cakes well. 8)

*Sighs* So, Happy Birthday sweet heart. I love you! :)
Today's been a good day so far. =) I'm going to visit you during your breaky-break. *nods* I'm a ninja~ who is in a pretty damn good mood. XD ^^

Contrary to last night, obviously. Haha, silly period XD

 *Sighs* Guys, I'm losing it again. It sucks. I just don't want to bother with stuff right now, much less anything. Right now, I am mostly fake-happy. Which isn't gay, it's retarded. Ha-ha. 

In other news... Yazz made me real-blush yesterday. Heyyyy, look at that. The first time in I don't even know how long that it's not a good thing. 

It's my period, guys. Let me blame it on that for the week. 9:39 PM and I'm going to bleed on Wednesday or so. I need to re-stock on no-baby pills, sometime this week. 

I TOTALLY HAD A PERFECT KISS TODAY GUYS :D

I'm happy about this. *nods* XD Extremely. ^^ 

I love you Monkey-Face! <3 

 Men Who Stare At Goats = Good Movie.
Party for Yazz = successful.

Et maitenant, bonne nuit, tous les mondes. 

Yazz, baby. I love you with all of my heart. 

Totally the best song ever (And yes, I am a girlie girl, sad but it's for love ;P). 

 You know what's awesome?
Snuggling.

You know what's even more awesome?

Snuggling with someone you love.

Ah Lahb Youh, Monster. <3 

Kisses,
Rawr-Love! 

(I haven't done anything today. I've practically slept all day and I'm pretty alright with that. I wanted a day to myself, anyway...)

I have an essay due on Monday in English. I'm probably going to start on that tomorrow, actually. 

Yazz is my love. 

 Guys, I'm 19. Turning 20 this year. Still live with my parents, still going to school. Stuff is crazy, non? 
yazzeh

 I am in such a bad mood today. I'm feeling really rando-volatile and I pretty much want to punch everyone in the face. Ah, sucks to be me today. 

 L - is for the way you look at me,
O - is for the only one I see,
V - is very very, extra-ordinary,
E - is even more than anyone that you adore can

Love is all that I can give to you 
Love is more than just a game for two
Two in Love Can Make It,
Take my heart but please don`t break it
`cause Love was made for me and you.

I love you Sweetie, and I know it was cheesy. P: <3 

 I really don`t wanna be sick. ToT My body is aching times a million and I feel like so much crap it`s not even funny. I`m literally crying over this.And it`s not like distracting myself is real easy. I want a hug but I don`t want to get anyone else sick. .-. I feel TERRIBLE. I can barely move myself, seriously. 

I even forgot to take my pill yesterday so now I have to take two pills. D: I`m not going to freak out about it either because fuck youuuu. 

Guys, it hurts to swallow and I have a fever. I don`t know how high it is because I haven`t checked but it feels pretty damn high. My body aches way too much for this to be a cold. XP I`m taking my temperature right now and it`s currently at 37.5 and unchanging. oh it just went up another one. thats pretty high, guys. D: It`s at 37.7... 37.8... I think I`m supposed to wait until it beeps but I don`t remember. D: It keeps going up. D: 38.1, 38.2. :( I probably need to wrap a wet towel around my fore-head. I don`t wanna lay in bed though, because if I lie down I`m going to feel even more terrible. 

I think I have strep throat, guys. :( One of my tonsils is 'preggers'. Only one, though - and the other has white splotches on it. DDD: I'm only going to the doctors on Monday though ._. But for now, I need to gargle salt water. yummmmm-ee. 

*sighs* I really just want a hug ._. 

 So, I have a math test today. I've been freaking out and being super stressy for the past two weeks. Maybe three, if I take something else into account. Anyway, I got sick. Yes, folks, I have the plague. Which sucks, because... well, do I really have to give you an answer? It's halloween (This is like three years ago! I got sick near halloween and couldn't go trick or treating because I was too sick. ToT), I'm supposed to be wearing a costume and it'll be raining on Saturday, apparently. And I don't really have any to nurse me back to health except for myself. So, healthy things must be eaten again. Oh, did I mention that I have to get up with less than what I think is going to be 5 hours of sleep tomorrow morning? I need to be at Yazz's for like, 6:00 AM to 6:15. Don't metros only open at 5:30? They open at 5:30, omg. XD Yazz I don't know how you expect me to be there by 6:00 - 6:15. XD I just tried to hitch a ride from my mother and she declined. Reeejecteddd XDD 

I'm having some chicken and rice soup, and some chicken stuff with veggies my mom made. I already took a tablet of ibuprofen, and some vitamin c tablets. >.> I don't want to miss halloween again, please. ._. So, PREVENTION MEASURES! XD I am feeling better. Although starting today I need to go on a diet with my work out that's supposedly starting tomorrow. No, I'm not going to be anorexic, fuck. I'm just gonna watch what I eat for a bit. So is Yazz, for that matter. He's 'not allowed to skip lunch' but I can't really stop him from doing that. I can ask him to tell me the truth in which case he will, but he's 'not allowed to skip lunch'. He might a few times though. I'm just going to start eating properly again - nothing too large, and snacks in between. I figure that's what I was doing for a year in depression, and it worked out pretty well. XD I'm going to be like a hobbit - Breakfast, mid-morning-snack, lunch, mid-afternoon snack, dinner, then possibly another snack. Well, okay, sort of like a hobbit. Since hobbit's have dinner, lupper, brunch, lunch, breakfast, mid-morning tea, mid-afternoon tea, early supper-tea. XD I bet they have a few other ones, too.

Anyway, I really need to eat the rest of this soup and leave so I can do well on that test. WISH ME LUCK! 

 I think I'm getting sick. 

 If, by the end of this week, I'm in a good mood, then it's pretty much smooth sailing. *Sighs* I'm close to breaking and just out right screaming at him telling him, but no. *Squishes her face and contorts it* Oh well, I'm pretty sure I'm just stressed out about my upcoming math test the most. XD 

I'm going to stop looking for things and start my day now 

 It was four days ago. My bad... but it's been more than half a year for you. >.> 

Anyway, today marks the first Friday I've been up early in about a month. Go me? I think so. It's 08h10 and I'm in class with Yazz, at dawson. It's his stats class and his teacher is cool. 8)  

SCRTPLNZ are coming along well. It seems that things are working out the way I want them to, after-all. We'll still be taking that stroll after work which is nice. =) ;P SCRT SCRT. xD

My finger fracture is getting better. I can move it quite a bit - there seems to be minimal bruising now, too. awesome. Although there is still a bit of bruising. I can type pretty well. But I still have the band-aid on, and I'm not letting myself take it off until Monday night. 

I finished Ender's Shadow on Monday, actually. I haven't been reading at all, and although I said to Yazz that I was probably going to start on Wednesday again after giving my mind a break, I'm probably not going to start too soon. I have a book to read for English Class called The End Of The Affair. There's apparently a film on it and I think it's partially a romance novel - which makes sense because with war comes love and love with war; I'll be reading that. We're supposed to be reading about 30 - 50 pages a week, which isn't that bad considering if I'm really into a book I can read a book that's got about 3xx pages in a day and a half. Yes, I realize that I've read Ender's Game in about that much time and I haven't even touched a Harry Potter book, and LoTR took me about three years to finish. So sue me, LoTR was hard to keep up with and read a lot of the time, while I thought Ender's Game was amazing (As much as LoTR was when I did get to the interesting bits). I didn't want LoTR to finish when it did because within the last, maybe, four or five chapters they blended in all together and I didn't even realize that Frodo and Sam were at Mount Doom, and then Smeagol bit Frodo's finger off and my brain went: "wait... what?" So, unfortunately, I didn't get to enjoy the last part as much. I guess I just wanted to finish it and started reading mindlessly, much like I do with things that bore me. But I remember a few things during that time. The Lady and Faramir - Frodo coming back home, Sam and Frodo hiding, Smeagol sneaking around (Still one of my favourite scenes within the animated movie), Aragorn coming in on a ship... but ask me to place them and I can't. Ender's game started off a little slow - first two chapters, maybe three were slow. Then he got shipped into Battle School and everything was readable and fun :D Ender's Shadow started off... a little faster, I guess? It was the story of his origins basically, and that's all I'm going to say. Adrian knows I'm pretty into these books - at least from what I've read.

The past week has been interesting. We went to the book store, I went to the doctors, I've been tired as fuck with my energy constantly being drained, and so on. I had an energy drink this morning. There are always repercussions to that. Head-butting, tackling... the usual, basically. 

I don`t feel like writing anymore so I`m going to attempt to play something on mah laptop. :3 

 I need to find a present for Ricky and Yazz. I need to finish organizing something, REALLY soon too. I need to buy a Coconut - for Yazz. :3 
I need to finish prepping for halloween - DOES ANYONE ELSE NOTICE HOW CLOSE IT IS? :D I only JUST did. num num num taters for dinner~ 

 Yazz is so cute, oh my god. <3 He's asleep right now and he's still got his glasses on. Unfortunately, I can't take them off of his face right now, or else I would. I just want to cuddle with him and fall asleep in his arms all curled up into a comfortable entanglement with him. 

Driftin' off into some candle light...