So, being moody because of my pills pulled a major fuck you on me. Which is okay, because I'm on my period now and it's all good. I'm not really thinking of killing myself, ever, anymore. Just the thought of "what would happen" and "what would it be like". What would happen: A lot of people would grieve. A lot of people would be pretty damn sad. I'm not being egotistical, it's the truth. If anyone does, their friends and family members are usually sad at their death. They may celebrate differently than other places, but in the end it's the same. I have no idea what it would be like, though, nor do I intend to find out any time soon.

So, as some of you know, Yazz lives near an overpass. It's weird. I'm not suicidal or depressed, but every time I look down upon the oncoming and on going cars through the overpass, I just feel like I want to jump. It's a random feeling, and it's that specific overpass. Ohwell~ 

I'm listening to "Walking In Memphis" by Marc Cohn right now. It's a good song. I'm also bleeding. And incredibly happy about this X3 

 I'm makin' a pressie for Yazz, guys. :) Yes, makin'. Not like scrapbook or roses, though I'm probably going to make a rose for him sometime soon just because. So yes sweetie, be carful or I ambush you with a rose. (Doesn't that sort of remind you of Tuxedo Mask or most ballroom dancing?) :3 

Oh, also, go read NaNoWriMo`s history. 

I stopped taking my pills... yesterday morning, I think. My penicillin pills. Now, I'm not sure if my throat is supposed to hurt slightly after it. I know I'm not having too much trouble swallowing but I'm a little worried that it's already coming back or I didn't have a strong enough dosage? If it gets too bad then I'll do something about it. The crappy part is I'm on my period, so things in general are pretty wonky for me right now. 

Yazz is going to wake me up at about 5.30 AM tomorrow, which is good. But I had to persuade/tell him that he needed to. XP He wanted me to rest but I was resting ALL TODAY and now I'm just... blah. XD The good news is I'm on my period. The bad news is everything in my body is very angry with me, and my emotions are being pretty retarded. Moreso than usual when I'm on my period. I'm sad/cry-face/depressed, which is normal for me on my period. but me being randomly angry to the point of just wanting to shut people out is rather new. XD Give me time, I'll adjust. I did it pretty well/quickly this evening. 

So, I've been thinking of keeping a mini-side journal on my laptop. At the end of the day, I'll document everything I did that day. It will start with variants of "Today", and end with "MLIA." Just kidding, or maybe I'm not. It seems a bit interesting, and I'll get to read it at the end of the month to see how my days go. Mundane, amusing, fun, etc. I'm not sure if I'll be documenting any specific emotions, just rather vague ones. Although I suppose all emotions that can be pinned with a specific name or word are vague. Anyway, I'm not too sure how it's going to go. I don't know what format I'll be writing it in either, so this should be fun. Think of it as my own NaNoWriMo, except that not that intense. I might start for December though, seeing as how It's already November 11th. I guess December is an odd time to start though, because of exams, holidays, etc. We'll see when I decide to start.  

But yeah. That's pretty much that for today. I updated my blogger and I am pretty beat. I need to sleep naow. Yazz tried to crack my back but it was stiff so it wouldn't work. Silly body, you're not supposed to be that stiff! 

*Tackle hugs Aikou*