( Insight )
I am tired. It's not very nice outside, there's a pretty large overcast. All gray and cloudy with "tiny" patches of blue-sky peering through the clouds. It's also chilly.

I'm a sucker for cute/sad stories.  I'll get all teary-eyed, and start to cry really, really easily. Something Like this would make me cry: Like I said, I'm a sucker for sap-stories.

My life lately has been everything but boring, if you want the truth. Albeit I'm one of those people who define 'boring' as a regular kid who goes to school, sees their friends and doesn't do anything out of the ordinary. Something like Volunteer work is extremely amazing to me at times, and something like a fire in a building close will get me all excited and worried and talking about it, conjuring up theories of how it started or thinking about things like the metro going under-water and making the train water-proof.

I don't act my own age a lot of the time, either. I'm an 18 year old half asian half european female, born and raised in Montreal Quebec who resides in a little part of the city known as Verdun, going to her first semester of college after a year long break.
How exciting does that sound? That's the point, it doesn't sound very exciting at all. If I were to act my age, I'd have to act like... I'd have to be someone else, is what I'm trying to say. I'd act my age. I'd act like a girl. Then I'd act like an 18 year old girl. I'd act Asian and European. I'd be acting like an 18 year old, Azn-Euro female. Oh, and don't forget, Montreal is a media centre for quite a few things, apparently fashion included. So I'd be way out of my comfort zone, really.
Do you see where I'm going with this?
If I were to act my own age, I'd be acting, not being myself.
Excuse my language if you so choose to do so, but fuck that. I'm Jen, Jennifer, Jennars, even. I'm not your typical, average every-day girl. I've got my share of drama-induced friendships and relationships. I like different things. I like technology, and gadgets that are useless, and video-games, and computers, and science of certain things, and camp-fires, and food, and... I like a lot of things that an average every-day girl doesn't. I'm not going to change, or act my own age just for someone else to appease them. If you want me to act my own age, I'll just shut up. Fine, I'll stop talking, I get the point, you're embarassed to be around me because I'm happy going off on a tangent about something that doesn't even make sense. *sighs*

My life has been everything but boring, lately. I'm in a rut with my best friend. There is a lot going on in his head, and he won't tell me a thing, so I can't really do anything about it. I know he's worried, I know I'm worried, but nothing is being said, and I don't know why. I don't really know where to start. I manage to spend time with everyone else but him, somehow.

I'd be lying if I said I knew what I was doing all the time, but I'd be lying if I said I didn't know what I was doing all the time.

I think I'm going to end up callin' you "baby" more than I ever have to anyone. Ha-ha. I hope you don't mind?
*shrugs with a random smile on her face*

When I can say it... 10 days.
It's funny how eventful this summer has been... for me. Actually, this whole  year so far.

In August of last year, I started talking to Rob.
In September we had established a relationship. (I think it was September 20th?)
In October, November and December we were still going out.
In December, I went to the Philippines.
I spent my birthday, Christmas, and New Years' there.
The last week of my vacation I met this guy there.
Things fell apart.
I came back from my vacation, and I was single.
I dated the guy that I met there for a month.
Considered breaking up with him on Valentines day, decided that I couldn't. Broke up with him a few days after that.
Went through a super shitty three months at the start of this year. (January, February and March.)
Started looking for a job around the end of February, beginning of March.
Got back with Rob for about 17 days. March 3rd till the 20th.
Almost killed myself on March 26th, 2008. (Got the date down too, how awesome? ;))
Got my Vanier acceptance on April 1st, 2008. (Coincidentally, it was April Fools day.)
And all of a sudden things got better. (Not really.)
Developed a crush on his (Rob's) best friend, Mack.
That went away 'round the end of May or so. Questioned it, realized it was just a crush 'cause I had someone around. (So much for 'loving' someone. XD Aren't you glad I can change so abruptly? :P Sorry sorry, out of line, my bad.)
Heard that my close, best-friend Adrian found a job at a company testing video games. It turns out that America's brother, Miguel was working at the same place. Miguel sent me the survey to fill it in. Filled it in, passed the pre-req finding bugs for the job thing.
I got the job. (Confidence + more?)
I started workin' there and it was fun.
Things happened.
People were met.
Things were said.
A lot has been said, a lot is still being said.
Mis-understandings arose, which are still around... and being resolved, somewhat.
And that's my year so far.

Coincidences/Similarities/Lol-factors:
Rob + Yazz are Scorpio's.
America is Miguel's sister.
America knows Adrian and I.
Mack is Rob's best friend. (Redundant much?)
And I am me!

    So, aside from what's been happening with me, what's been happening with you? It's not that eventful, granted I'm a boring person, but I'd say it's been a pretty crazy ride so far. The year is still meh-like, but day to day is amazing.